Opening Up

Sounds like I was in quite a mood when I wrote this at 2am...screw it, I'll post it anyway.

I was just thinking last night that this has been one of the happiest weeks for me that I can remember this year. It's strange too, when you consider some of the people around me who seem a bit down or worried at times. Hopefully that means I'm some kind of optimist or Dalai Lama, rather than some sinister asshole who subconciously takes enjoyment out of others' suffering. I'd describe the feeling as being like a king. Having a wallet full of freshly withdrawn money does have that effect on me!

The only other things I can think of that has changed recently is my new phone, plus it seems I'm opening up and chatting heavily with a lot of different people. It actually feels good talking about some of the things I'm passionate about, whereas normally I tailor my conversation suited to the participants and the environment, often just keeping my good and bad news to myself. We've got some really cool guys at work, with such a great wealth of experience and unique views on the crazy world we live in. Really genuine people are fantastic and in turn, I should be (and pretty much am) as genuine and honest to them in return.

I'd like to be a prophetic sort of guy too, providing guidance and experience to people I talk to and to feel right at home about it all. I would also like to help spread a good vibe around while I've got a good one going. I know a fair few people out there who feed off other people's positive energy to help manifest some of their own. Not sure whether positive moods can be communicated through a blog or not - I might find out if a discussion topic sways that way. After all, there's so much chat about blogs amongst my friends at the moment. It seems everyone's getting on board the blog train. It's so "in" that one of the girls on Neighbours apparently has one too.

A wise Lamb was recounting some more of his brilliance earlier this week. In particular, he pointed out the main problem with young people these days: that everyone's too concerned with maintaining an image rather than just getting out there and having a good time. I couldn't agree more. I don't know if that means I should let myself go a bit more or if everyone else should be the ones to embrace this ideal.

I had a crazy idea last night - admittedly when I was drunk - that maybe I should try out this love thing that everyone seems to be into. I've never really felt like I needed it, and I still don't, but so many people seem to get satisfaction out of that level of companionship that I'm curious. For a moment I thought it'd be nice to go up to Panorama Drive and view the city lights with a lady friend, then just sit together in the Patmobile's backseat holding each other with Lior's This Old Love playing softly in the background. That's the Hollywood image anyway. In reality, that sort of mush might induce vomiting, so apologies to anyone experiencing that after reading it!